I have given a lot of thought as to why I believe in more than just this life, or why I believe in something bigger, stronger, and wiser* than I am…. than we are.
Bigger than the Big Bang.
I really need to thank my atheist friends for this. Their challenging inquiries and debates have forced me to ponder why I believe what I do. I am all the more self-examined and reflective because of that.
In these types of discussions, the idea of subjective emotional experience gets brought up, and for good reason many scoff at that idea as being valid enough to rest the course of one’s life on. That issue is for another post.
A few weeks ago, in the midst of one of my thrice yearly existential crises, I started to wonder: Why, excluding my “feelings,” do I believe in something beyond humanity?
The very idea of existence is baffling to me. Why does anything or anyone exist? The very idea of anything “being” or “existing” causes me to believe in something bigger. Something that although I can’t see, I believe in.
The interesting thing is, a lot of atheists may not necessarily disagree with me… they just don’t believe in any particular form of that “something.” I have constructed that something, based on my feelings, experiences, results of my activity in my faith, my family, what provides meaning, and what connects me the most with a desire to love and serve others.
If, in the end, what I have constructed turns out to largely be myth, that is okay.
If it turns out that this whole time I have had only a small part of the picture, that is okay. It is okay because the process, the journey, and the growth are a LOT more important now to me than the ultimate destination.
We cannot worry about the end state now.
We cannot worry too much about what heaven will be like, or who will be there, or if it even exists. We must concern ourselves with what we are doing now.
We are, therefore, there IS something. Bigger, stronger, and wiser.
Please, let me know your thoughts. Is my thinking flawed? Is it on target? Can you relate? Does the accepted fact of “existence” stir anything in you?